First of all...I hope you didn't I am really worried about you!'

Second...you said you've talked about this ad nauseoum with him, so what is his response to "I am REALLY struggling right now, and hearing from you may make me stop from "X." I don't know if that is a good thing to be able to say to a T, or not? It is very confusing.

Either way, I don't agree that he went from "We are talking WAY TOO MUCH," (and to which you agree to on some aspect), to "I will never talk to you out of session."

Except, when you see him, whether at game night or in session, it seems to go okay. Do you leave session and just can't hold onto that version of your T? I know you have mentioned recently that you think his wife hates you, and now you are worried he thinks you are gross (I truly believe he doesn't, bc I am not a T, and I don't think you are gross AT ALL)...and I know you are struggling with your thoughts.

It is all so difficult I am sorry.