I dont like the idea of a deadline. I realize im talking about a perfect world where money doesnt matter. I want to be free to hear myself when i do tell myself from the inside that its time. I dont want to force that deadline on myself from the outside.

So i would say that "growing up" is taking responsibility for when you call time - whether you decide to call it from the inside or the outside. Growing up is not necessarily calling time (over).

But then again, my model is my dad. Every time my mom tried to rush him, he would move even slower! And she rushed me my whole life. So i have no patience for rushing now!