So I have been pondering this forever since my freshman year when I started liking this girl I bearly knew and the question is WHY such strong reaction to girls I dont really know?
I'm currently in a relationship and its happen before ill scroll past the picture of my high school crush on facebook and get butterflies... and i dont understand this logically. I asked that girl out like 3 times, made attempts to talk with her, gave her a 5 page note of my feelings,Ask her successfully to a date, Asked her to prom but failed cause she had a date, and almost miss her. Im alittle creeped out honestly.
My childhood was with a detached mother and a sorta not there father.
This isnt the only time this has happened but I domt think its as extreme. This is just kinda just a question for me since A. i cant tell my girl about this cause she'll think I like her and B.I cant resolve this with said girl cause Ive kinda already said everything, also this creepy vibe i am getting from myself.
Its not like she never responded to these things. She was happy when I got her a present, Tried talking to me after the note, and was kinda sad i was late on prom taking so long to just say no that i had to tell her to just say it. Idk.
I wanna know is it symbolic? Is there something obivous I dont see? Or am I just a weirdo ������?
My brain just seems to never let go. Logic has. In fact logic doesnt like this emotional string, I dont feel she deserves it and I dont think its healthy. Idk though, everytime i used to see her, I saw a leader, someone who tried hard, someone who was involved, someone who cared about her friends and was afraid of what she had to do. Why The reaction...? (just saw a photo of her on facebook today so figure I ask) Im currently graduated and shes in college somewhere up state.