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Old Dec 17, 2007, 10:39 PM
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dinosaurs said:
I have very very few memories. Just a database of facts that I know to be true but don't feel connected to me. Even for present day events. It often feels like I only started to exist a few days ago. And at times I even question whether I do exist or not.

Having no history, let alone a continous history, really does have a big impact on your sense of self.


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thanks so much dinosaurs you too sound like you really relate and you phrased it exactly like it feels. this database of facts w/o feeling the meaning or feelings tied to it. i realize the dissociating began as a way to escape my childhood pain but it continues as a life long way of dealing, like a swith you can't turn off. i feel like i'm living 50 First Dates only with feeling. did you see that movie? it's not really the same thing but you get the idea.