I feel better now. Thanks for the kind words Mobius.

I guess I was just triggered by the video game comment. I do have a passion for both video games and technology and these things are what I love above all else in life. When I was around 7 or 8, I l first started video games when at school, they had a Super Nintendo in class for the children to play every Friday when they did well on their school work and behaved themselves. I developed my passion from there and later moved onto PC gaming and was inspired to build a PC at around age 8 with the help from a relative (which isn't in my life anymore because of my mother's selfish lies but I won't get into that).

Later on as I dealt with my mother trying to control my life and lying to the doctors about my mental illnesses that I didn't have and having me institutionalized constantly when I would defy her or act out. She even would not allow me much of a normal childhood due to her claiming that I was a threat to other children when I wasn't, I spent more and more time gaming because I had nothing else to do when I wasn't allowed to play outside and make friends. I was told on more than one occasion that I needed to stop gaming so much and I had people try to take my games away and I used to get so hurt and angry because I had no friends and nothing else to do; gaming is all I ever had and the only happiness I had in my life when I was bullied for being a fat nerd and even physically abused by other children every day and I had to come home to my mother's drama.

So for anybody who comes across this thread or interacts with me on other threads, please don't tell me to not play video games anymore because it's perhaps one of my biggest triggers. Thank you.