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Perna said:
Susan, what was your childhood like? I had breaks in my past like you described where there were breaks in my childhood. I was in therapy more often than not from 1970-2005, 18 years with the same therapist.

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Hi Perna. Thanks for responding. It was really a long term traumatic event. my dad had paranoid schitzoprenia from the time i was 3 and was in and out of mental hospitals during my lifetime. my mother was in severe anxiety and showed it in the form of being extremely distant and hurtful with me. they say the lack of being "seen" and the horror of the things i witnessed left me dissociating and then it just became a way of life i guess. with my mom, i was like here punching bag so to speak. no "bonding".

wow, 18 years with the same T...i really aren't alone in this i guess! thanks perna!!