J (current T)?? Or maybe to nobody....

Why would I ever think that I would be different?
S left his wife, his severely disabled kid...who he talks about as if he's an object. Who he doesn't even claim as his.
S does stupid **** like sending his ex wife flowers randomly out of the blue on Mother's day to make HIMSELF feel better.
Why would I ever think that he would care about me or what is best for me?
Why would I ever think that he would put me first?
If not for his kid, why the **** would he do it for me?

I should've run mere weeks after meeting him when I uncovered all of this about him. I knew. I knew right then that here was a guy who spelled trouble -- he abandoned his child. He abandoned his severely disabled child. No matter how he tries to spin it, how much he demonizes his ex wife, he still abandoned his child. He could've fought. He could've hired lawyers and fought like hell. But he didn't. He left. For himself. And didn't look back. And disowned his son. Just like his dad disowned him. Whether he wants to admit it or not. And I keep trying to avoid saying it, because I'm terrified of believing it about him.

I believed he was the best therapist in the world.
I believed he was the best, because he told me he was the best.
But, what other evidence do I have?
He was not busting at the seams with clients...
He's not published anywhere... he's not won any awards.
He's not even well-known in the community. Nobody I interviewed to be a new therapist for me knew his name.