Hi Fuzzy

Never any need to apologise for negativity!!
And from the things you've said you've experienced you have every right to feel negative about some of the things you've been through with professionals!!!
But their problems are about them, not about you, you're 101% worth fighting for so never forget that!!!!
Just wondering if you have these guys in or near your area who could maybe help more:
https://rethink.org/living-with-ment...tions/advocacy
But the point is you and you are worthy of/worth help........very much so!!!!

Alison