It's okay to not know what you want. I've always struggled with that as well. I have interests, and get engrossed in projects for a while, but nothing has ever struck me as being my "passion". I think that we miss the point of purpose when we look for some *thing* that will bring passion to our lives. Rather than worrying about activities or careers, maybe you could try to connect with more people. You are going through a painful disconnection. This person was likely a huge part of your sense of purpose, and you're back to feeling that old disconnection from purpose again because of that loss. But that's your clue right there! I never found purpose till I found *my unique way* of helping people. We are hard wired social creatures, we exist to serve each other, and I think we find our truest passions when we find our way of working with the people around us in whatever form that takes - but people are the important piece of the puzzle, not any particular activity. I may be wrong, but that's what I've found in my experience. Wishing you peace and clarity. <3