I feel similarly pretty much constantly. It's like viewing the world from over my own shoulder. There but not quite. Although for me there is also the sense is of being displaced. Being in the wrong place,time,body.

Whilst my upbringing was pretty screwy, I wouldn't say it ever constituted traumatic, or particularly abusive, besides I remember always feeling like this from when I was very small.

I just kind of gave up on getting an answer. My pdoc offenders but after very very long talks he hasn't a conclusion. I am not even convinced there is one. I am not down particularly, I feel empathy. I am able to interact an communicate it's just everything feels somehow removed.

No one ever seems to notice, not even my partner who has known me for years, so I figure it just us what it is.