Hi, Soul Quake. I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I hope your boyfriend knows that the anxiety you're showcasing means you care. I hope your phone call went well, and if you're still feeling worried after the fact, maybe journaling or writing him a letter would help. Right now he probably needs his space to figure everything out, but if you're ever needing any more support or you feel anxious again don't forget that you've got people to help you here, as well. Good luck, and I hope he makes a speedy recovery.