(((sabby))) thanks hun, some really wise words there and i have taken them into consideration.

I am really starting to question the value of having him around.

Tonight we were talking via msn and he told me that if i decide to have pain releif drugs, he refuses to be there when the baby is born, on the basis that they can cause further problems during childbirth. Well, um, PAIN is a problem dontcha think? If i am overcome with pain that is NOT going to help my baby.

Then we got to talking about something else and I mentioned wanting him to be there to hold the baby after its born, and he was like "I told you I'm not playing house with you"... and I was like, uhhh what does that have to do with you holding your son after he is born? And he just replied that we "didn't have to discuss this now" and dropped it.

Makes no sense to me at all... And kind of pissed me off too.