I feel terrible today
sad, sad, sad, sad,
have you ever had so much anxiety in your belly
you get to the point where you just need to howl and cry to let it out?

I will not answer any calls today
creditors are hassling even after solicitors are sorting it
I closed my curtain so noone can see in
I have to go to therapy later
I have to go shopping, with my kids and Tony in a huge mall
I have to go out ....
I have no tablets left ....
trying to manage without them, maybe withdrawal,valium kinda stuff
I know this is selfish and everyone has problems
noone seems to reply apart from close friends to my posts anymore
I feel invisible yes very selfush I know
I feel so much guilt about my mum
and dad
my daughter seems depressed
we have an extra one for christmas lunch, daughters /f
first year I've been scared of Christmas for years
I just want to cry
Im so sad today .....

sorry Jin x