i talked about SA in session, left and started falling apart. was fine in session but not after. it hit me like a brick wall. i struggled a lot and texted T for reassurance but went ignored. ended up relapsing and shooting up drugs in order to numb out and forget it all. i did text him yester and told him about my relapse. i feel so embarrassed and ashamed - about all of it. the SA disclosures and the relapse. so i texted him last night and cancelled until August and said i would contact him then