So I feel liked I am damned if you do damned if you don't. I finally find meds that are helping the depression but the side effects are worse than the disease. But it has been forever since anything has helped the depression for more than a couple weeks. I am ready to give up on meds altogether at this rate. How do people keep trying meds over and over. It has been about 3 years for me know and I can't do it anymore. I was stable for so many years before that on just one med. I think those days are long gone.