I really relate to this. I have resisted increasing my meds but recently did and it is helping. When I do better its very hard in some ways to learn to function without the familiar outlook and ways of thinking. I still have anxiety and the doctor would not give me anything for that (instead he increased my anti-depressant which was at a fairly low dose), so I am working on that too. If you are feeling better that is a good thingI hope you will find peace on your journey