Carrie,

I appreciate that a lot. I have mixed feelings, since going back to the more minor methods to me just means going back to where I was before deciding that using a blade was easier. At it's worst, I've never done very bad damage. But my tendency is either I'm trying to behave myself entirely, and eventually things build up to the point that I really want to cut, or I'm constantly scratching, head-banging, and doing smaller stuff over things that aren't even a big deal. And if I stop one method, I invent a new one. I'm a lost cause.

And now I've just messed up in replying to you by contradicting what you said, didn't I? I ought not to post this, but I think I will anyway. I just keep realizing how much more socially awkward I am than I ever even realized before. I must be really confusing to try to interact with. I'm so confused myself, and sometimes I think I should just go live in a cave somewhere. Sorry.
Wendy