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Originally Posted by Hopingtrying
 DarknessIsMyFriend--
I am sorry you had such a tough time yesterday. Sometimes when I have a bad day or evening, I feel better the next day if I get some decent sleep. I DO hope you are feeling better today.
 I really do like you. Your explanations of your problems and feelings are expressive and make sense. You do not strike me as having a low IQ. Is this your first semester in college? I was from a really small town where most of the kids did not go on to college. I got one D and some Cs (can't remember how many) but changed to a major I could handle my sophomore year and received all As and Bs during the next 3 years. When I completed my masters degree, I received 9 As and 1 B. So, I am just trying to tell you that it takes time to get used to college studies. I had a terrible problem with procrastination during my freshman year as well. Don't give up. I have read that the male brain is still developing well into the late 20s. You can still get smarter! I do not think anyone's IQ is set in stone.  |
To clarify, I never did say that I have a low IQ. However, as a young child, I had an extremely high IQ. In fact, my IQ was so high that some adults considered me to be a genius and a prodigy.
Unfortunately, being forced into such extreme abuse and neglect for most of my childhood after that point has caused me to have a reduced IQ as an adult. I went from well above average or possibly even a genius level IQ to just barely above average all because of the hell I went through when my brain was in it's critical stages of development.
This is a big reason why I no longer care as much about education. In my mind, if I can't gain back what I lost, why even try? Even if I did gain back the high IQ of my childhood, I would probably put so much time into doing so that I would be unhappy most of the time and by the time that I'm done, there would likely be a new generation of children that would have geniuses that people would appreciate and love instead of me because I'm no longer a child.
This is why I seem intelligent but claim to function at a reduced capacity and this is also why I don't put a priority into schooling. I would rather focus on developing what few strengths that I have involving technology and video games. In fact, I eventually want to turn my passion for tech and games alike into me eventually into either having a company that makes game systems or even makes games or AI code for games or I want to fully master competitive gaming and make my own competitive eSport or Cybersport team (competitive gaming is actually seen as a type of cybersport with companies that sponsor teams for lots of money now).
I don't know which path I want to take yet out of those possible ones but every one of them requires a small specified set of knowledge and none of them require a college degree to be good at. I would rather be a specialist in things that I'm passionate about and am already good at then some kind of intellectual that knows a variety of knowledge who spends a great deal of time and money to get to where they are; especially since I would have to work much harder than most to become the former, yet, I have a solid foundation built already to become a true master my small specific set of knowledge.
See my point?