I think the opposite.
Yes, it is difficult, but when you can work on the issue with T. who's triggering you it's a good opportunity to take a closer look and to see how your feelings are changing. That is a therapeutic relationship for - we repeat some behaviors from real life with T. And then we can discuss it "online" - when we are IN this relationship and when it happens.

However, I would skip all details about searching, looking for family members etc. And focus more on feelings. That you'd like to know more about T., you can't and it's really frustrating. Then you can discuss your need without scaring T.