I went back to my original T and we brought up my attachment issues. We were talking about how she called me rude when I had pulled back from a friend because my friend called me out since I don't have her as a contact in my phone.

She said, "Look, I'm gonna call you out on your behavior. If you're rude, I'm not gonna sugarcoat it. You've been this way since day one and it's affected your relationships. I don't care if I'm stored in your phone or not. It's her."

Being stored in my phone is someone officially in my life. I have only a few contacts in my phone and I told her I had stored her, previously and that she had become official. "well about time" she said, "Its only been a year." To hear, "Look I don't care if I'm in your phone or not" was hard, considering she knows that I see her as an attachment figure and what it meant. I don't even understand why she said that.

To be attached to her and hear, "I don't care." Hurts. I don't think I can continue with her. Still doesn't make sense because we weren't talking about her as a contact in my phone.

At the end, she asked what would have happened had she not contacted me and why I didn't contact her. If I was gonna just start mailing in payments without trying to patch it up first.

Continued...