I'm so sorry this happened to you. But sadly I'm not surprised. I've not had good experiences with therapists & I don't see one. I've read posts, here on PC, written by members who said their therapists saved their lives. So I presume there must be great therapists out there. Unfortunately I never found one.

I'm not on any psych med's (nor any other med's for that matter.) I do a couple of hours of yoga & other exercises a day. And that has to be my safe harbor. I hope that, in some way you can find something... or someone... who can function as your safe harbor. And I send warm hugs with the hope that it might be so...