Thank you both for your replies.

I really wish I had just talked about this with T at the time because now I am stuck obsessing over it for a whole week. I just realised that I wasn't invited to a friend's birthday so that's kind of confirming the thought that no one wants me around. If I look at things rationally I know that it is probably because I have been living the hermit life and not keeping in touch with people so it is easy to forget about me. I have also been off my medication for about a month now as I thought it wasn't helping and I didn't like my Pdoc... Kind of thinking that was a mistake now as I struggle to even get out of bed.

Sorry, this got kind of off track but I just needed to vent.