Happy to see you are doing better, Darkness!
You seem like such a resourceful person, and I really think you're going to get where you need to go. Another poster mentioned how expressive you're writing is and I agree with them. When it comes to college, if you think you can stay afloat and still go part time, you would still be able to pursue any degree that might help you with getting a job in the tech field or something.

Maybe even look into the shorter term options for schooling, like certification programs and what not.

And in between your work and school or if you just find full time employment, set aside some time to just collect yourself and breathe. If you can begin practicing mindfulness through yoga, meditation, and other exercises, it will make those times when you are playing your games that much more enjoyable because you'll be more in touch with the moment.

Hope you have a good week