10 days ago I quit geodon for risperodone , both for sleep ... last night I started feeling low .. my wife even said something about it ... tonight it is even worse ...

going to go back on the "girls"... to try to lift that dark fog ... first time in weeks ...

if I quit the respirodone I know my pdoc will be madder than hell ... got yelled at last time ... but there is no way to reach him before monday ... but I am sure it is coming from this new med ... nothing else has changed and work has not been bad enough to cause it ...

I am a little afraid he may drop me ... I have been so non complient in the past ... so trying to be content and stay on the plan ... but I will not go down that black rabbit hole again ... really just wanting to vent ... but your opinion will be valued ...

I feel I have to take care of myself "now" , and worry about the rest monday ... of course I could say nothing and try to get his ok to quit without telling him I have ... I have made my decision to quit tonight ...

guess I really just want moral support ... and advise on what I should say monday ... ..
.. Tigger .