Sorry for taking so long to update....it's been a rough few days and things just sort of settled up a few hours ago. To make a long story short, I was able to get him to admit he needs help.....he admits he has alcohol problems and agreed to go into a rehab. I made a lot of calls and finally got in touch with someone who could offer some support for my son. It is fortunately covered through insurance but the soonest they could get him in is next Friday so we need to try to keep him alive, safe and indoors for a week. If he leaves, he will officially be homeless until he enters rehab. It's a 90 day residential facility which can extend to longer support if needed. Dual diagnosis treatment is ideal and we are so grateful to have this opportunity. My son will also begin going to a night program Monday until he enters the residential program in Friday.

Thank you so much for your advise, support and best wishes. This is a very hard time for me and my family. My son does not accept his mental illness but says he is open minded to hearing what the program doctors says.

A few people asked if my son lives with me. My son lived with me up until a few months ago. I became very unstable a few months back as a result of some very scary behavior from my son. My mother and husband got together and decided my son needed to move out of we would both drown. Also, my parents have a home business and my son was working for them 4 hours a day which we hoped would give him structure. Sadly it did not and my son's behavior over there continued to escalate and destabilize. They kicked my son out last night after an incident and told me everything he's been up to. It's terrible. They were keeping it from me as they worried it would destabilize me. When I would see my son, I would think he was getting better but he came over on the 4th and was a delusional mess. It was so scary. As long as my son doesn't drink, he is not a threat. He's delusional and doesn't think clearly but he's safe. He promises not to drink but it's a risk. I hope he doesn't and things all go as planned.

Thank you all again......my son is my life......the places I called kept saying "not everyone makes it, death is a real possibility". My son has to make it, I can't think otherwise for even a second. The one thing I know for sure is my son knows I love him....he knows my mother loves him. I will fight for him with my last breath.