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Jul 07, 2017, 10:01 PM

Thanks, guys. I'm just...I can't process any of the thoughts or feelings I'm having right now...

Possible trigger:

Sometimes I wish I had gotten into drugs or alcohol to numb the pain. Or that I could still SH or actually successfully commit suicide. But bio mom ruined drugs for me and I fail at suicide just like I fail at everything else.

Supposedly it gets better, but I'll be 30 soon and I'm still waiting for the better part.

It only ever gets bad like this late at night, when it's quiet. Normally I'd be in bed by now. Can't sleep because of the cold.