Yes...yes I relate.

I'm scared to think what a lot of other people online might say to this - "Oh look at you oh so edgy!!1 I bet you think you're really super speshul and dark how pathetic. Don't you know you're just a worthless human like the rest of us?" But I'll at least say that I've had similar grandiose fantasies - part of why I suspected I'm narcissistic, but maybe it's more common than thought.

Another point for putting it into stories; I've thought of doing that myself.