Yes, her lack of reacting to my statements has helped. It has been a slow build up. The first one resulted in me dissociating. Also, it was only a week ago that I let her know in the same session that I was mad with her. Usually I get mad, I write it out and then wait anywhere between 4-8 weeks after the event before I even start dropping nuggets that something was said that resulted in me being angry or hurt. By that time, I am no longer angry or hurt by the actions, I've turned it onto myself.

Oh, that session... she told me something at the beginning that was not good. We'd already been dealing with a rupture and this was just another blow to everything. I spent the next 20 or so minutes in silence as she periodically probed and waited and probed then waited. It wasn't until it was time to go and I couldn't gather up my stuff because I was so shaky that I stopped myself, pulled in and took some breathes then told her I was pissed. Even then she responded calmly, with a soft but clear voice, supportive, and listening. It was still about me and how the news had affected me.