That is exactly what I want. To know what happened and for her to own her part in it. I know it wasn't all me. And then I'm taking a break to decide if I want to continue or not. Part of me wanted to leave it alone and just not go back. But I couldn't do that because not knowing wth happened would eat at me forever. It was like "we" just totally imploded and exploded at the same time and with no warning just boom.