Hi Quarter Life, what you describe really sounds like me. I feel like I am wasting so much of my life just keeping my head above water. I do think that I've been only trying to keep myself afloat for a long while. You know, I have the energy to make changes lately. Maybe this post brought it on, or something else did.

I've realized that most people usually go on with their lives and don't care what others they don't know think of them. Thinking about my own thoughts, I realize how alien this is to me. Even knowing someone doesn't like me drags me into this depressed state, even though it shouldn't matter at all. Thoughts only exist inside heads, after all. And thinking about this, and other thoughts similar recently, I feel like I'm getting an inkling of what it's like to live for yourself.

I do agree that it's never too late. I do realize this is the only life we all have, so it's not a bad decision to do the best I can while I have it.

Thank you.