At the end of the day no one actually care a about anyone but themselves and their own well being.... I read a article the other day that triggered me... about her trying to commit suicide, being rushed to the DR, having to drink the charcoal mix.l I drank that mix.., no one in my life cares... my fiance, now wife threat end to leave me, the only friend I trusted enough to tell told me to grow up... I started swallowing 400mg lithium tablets.... I lost count, well, I didn't care to count past 30.... I got rushed to the icu, my friend/boss threatened to move me to a place I'd hate... I sometimes imagine writing letters, to the people who actually have the audacity to come to my funeral and pretend they care..., not too long after that I adopted a bullet, a .357 Magnus bullet, I named, I polished, every day for 4 months before I got readmitted... I'm so sick of this pathetic existence. ... everyone likes to pretend I'm fine... but I'm actually a bipolar ****tard.....