The last time I delt with the darkness I didn't do much about it, I let it drag me down into the maw of enteral darkness for over a year. I only sought help when it slid into a mixed episode which agitated me into movement.

I do understand the waking up with it, it's why I find it appealing to avoid sleep. But since my new cocktail and routine bedtime of midnight I've not woken up depressed.

What did I used to do in days gone by? Not schedule things for am, by 2pm I would come out of it no matter what I did or didn't do. No amount of caffeine helped( made me a jittery depressive)

I guess I didn't do enough it's meds that help me now.