Someone I know and respect greatly referred and pushed me to see my now current therapist. This t has some experience in helping clients with harmful therapy experiences. I've been seeing this t for 5 months now. She's given me tremendous support and is very understanding and patient with me. I was stuck in such a state of trauma because of old t that I honestly don't think I would have survived without current t's help.

Though I resisted initially, I knew I had to find another therapist to help me get out of the reckless situation I was in with old t. It was really bad and really complicated. It's been devastatingly costly - emotionally and financially. Long road ahead, too. Only in the last week and a half did I find hope to be able to come to trust my current t enough to be able to work out my non-therapist induced issues in the future. At least things are progressing.

My old t used my vulnerabilities against me. She used every single one of my insecurities and fears to intentionally hurt me in the end, all to try to cover her own *** and keep me quiet. For me not to go to therapy to get the help that I need and deserve makes my old t the "winner." She doesn't get to keep me down. She doesn't get my power. I am fighting back.

It's an extremely unfortunate situation to be harmed by a t. It's one that is grossly senseless and sometimes impossible to comprehend. It's easy to feel defeated and to give up hope that safe, skilled therapists are out there that can help us. I'm blessed to have found one of those therapists. Still, it's scary for me. I have to take the risk though because I refuse to go through the rest of my life living the way I've been existing.