Lately, I'm making a lot of mistakes with both over-spending, and I even gave money away without a blink of an eye. I am currently struggling with a lot of regret and feel like a fool. A friend asked me for some help recently due to being unemployed and losing everything. I gave away $200 without even thinking it through! I doubt I'll see it now due to such financial ruins my friend is in. I don't know people who would think that was such a wise move. Even with manic behavior, I never lent anyone that kind of money. When I get into phases like this, if more people in my life knew just how impulsive I can be, they would think that I have lost my mind (for instance, if my mother only knew). It is more characteristic that I'll spend money on myself or a group of friends when manic on something extravagant....not that I find that a great move when it's way out of my means.

I am feeling a lot of guilt, and I'm incredibly angry at myself. Can anyone else relate to dealing with such negative feelings about yourself after going through something similar involving money? I don't even know where to begin when it comes to being able to stop beating myself up.