I agree the old habits are difficult to completely let go. I am going the other direction. I had male breast augmentation. So while I'm a male I now have noticable female boobs. Prior to surgery I didn't think much about not being able to go shirtless. Actually thought it would be cool to have to wear a swim top. Now that I have boobs I feel very apprehensive / self conscious going to the beach or even a pool. Very surprised to have these feelings as I thought I would be more looking forward to it.