Broke up with my T last Friday by walking out and telling her that I'll mail in her remaining payments (she took that to mean, "F-ckk you, Jessica"- which is so not what I meant).

On Wednesday, she e-mailed and asked if I'd like an appointment and to see if we can move forward and get on the same page. I agreed, went, and left in tears and that overall, it didn't go well. At the end of the session, she was asking, "If I didn't reach out to you, what would have happened? Would you have contacted me? Would you have just started to mail payments in? Would I have heard from you again?"

I'm an avoidant. This isn't a game and I'm not testing her. I want to end it and I don't want her coming back (again), which I don't think she will, being as it just happened and this will be the second time I'm dumping her.

How did you break-up with your therapist?

I find myself wanting to explain, because she's going to just chalk this up to my avoidant issues when it isn't that. Why do I even care what she thinks? Ugh...