As one of the ones struggling, I know my T is a good T. I love my T. I know my T is not perfect and it was something my T said that activated this circuit in me. T did not mean how it feels, how I have taken it, and she has told me this. I believe she was genuine in her response to stuff when I brought it up. I believe she genuinely did not mean how I took it. Still I am at a loss as to how to deal with it all, how to find my way back to her. I know my T cares about me, she might even love me, depending on how you define that word. So... with all that said, I thought maybe I'd list why I feel and have felt my T is a good fit. I still think she is a good fit for me. She might not be able to take me all the way or... maybe I won't let her and that would be a shame either way.

My T has a quiet energy about her. She is female without being overly feminine - she keeps a natural look about her. These are important to me in order for me to feel comfortable around her (or any female). She is caring about the world in general. She is able to display and convey a world of emotions non-verbally. She keeps things about me even when I am talking about her. She is cautious about what personal information she shares with me. She allows out of session contacts. She is curious about me: wants to know about me and understand me. She is patient with me and willing to be wrong about something. She will take ownership of her part in this relationship. She is open to trying things if she feels there is a benefit.

Yeah, there's a bucket of goodness there.

And then there is the gut, just something in the gut says good. (well did and maybe that's my problem now, something in the gut keeps saying things are not good)