For me seeking external validation/meaning/approval was part of the problem, not the solution. And what's the point? If I pay someone to validate my damaging therapy experience (or any other), it means nothing. It's an act performed for money. And that validation in my experience will be mixed with all sorts of manipulations in defense of the therapy construct, and that will always prevail.

It's a closed, self-perpetuating system that requires conformity, and has its own fixed reality. All I would ever get is more of the same.

Here's a good analogy:
"In nonrelativistic classical mechanics, a closed system is a physical system that doesn't exchange any matter with its surroundings, and isn't subject to any force whose source is external to the system".