stuff and stuff and stuff.. ughhh

ok, this just sucks and sucks... I am in a piss poor place mentally, emotionally. It's so f**king annoying because I'm not really upset but .. I guess I would say I am blue and angry about it. I want to curl up beside you, put my head in your lap and watch TV... not the little boy, not the older boy (though he would not want to do that anyway), not the younger girl... me... the I in this whole package. They have all gone away, leaving me with just me. Wife is gone [camping], which I am glad and not glad about. And I am also angry with you, which doesn't make any of this easier.

I know what you said on Thursday was not meant to say the little boy wasn't welcome or that none of them were welcome. I feel like I've put you on egg shells because everything seems to be getting twisted in my head and I hear it in such a way to make things worse. Can you please make it stop? How do we make it stop?