I do not think this guy really wants to get to know me. We have been talking for like a few months on and off. And I always got an ambivalent feeling from him, that made me feel insecure. I may be clingy, I may be insecure sometimes, but I am working on this. I may not be good at dating. But........who cares? I don't want to date. I want a relationship. Me and this guy....we made out for an hour at the end of the date. And I think.....we really didn't have anything conversation wise to say to each other. He made me uncomfortable when we went to dinner. I found him kind of obnoxious. Not that...I mean I know people need to get to know each other. But I think I don't feel secure bc I haven't been given a reason to feel secure. There are people I do feel secure with. Still, I know I need to work on my self esteem.

I'm not going to contact him again.

I understand that everyone is different when it comes to dating. And I am working on becoming more secure, and feeling better about myself. I think...this means I need to respect my boundaries. I wish I was more secure in dating. So I'm working on this. But...I don't know. Do I need to be more casual and date around? I don't really want to.

I'm sure that we are on different wavelengths. And in different places in life. But whatever. I'm done. I'm not ok with feeling like I like someone, a lot, and they say they like me too, but want to see other women too. It doesn't make me feel good. and I'm not going to have sex with him. Though im sure i will love it. I think I will regret it. And feel bad.

I do want get better at not being clingy and insecure though.