Still I find it very difficult to separate myself from my mother. I sometimes feel I am her, have become her, or am becoming her. I don't like who my mother is as a person, yet I love her because she's my mom...the woman who gave life to me and raised me alone. It's taken years to separate my entity from hers and occasionally I relapse the idea and imagine myself as her. It sounds like mommy issues...I know. But, my biggest fear ever is to be my mother, in all ways, such as raising my own kids, my relationships, my values, and the moral delusions. Today I feel like I am her..I despise this feeling.