"The more pain the less support..."
I wish that weren't so, but too many stories exist exemplifying it.
You stuffed your pain for a long time. You tried to let it out in a formal setting. It should have been "safe" to do that there. It turned out otherwise.
((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.