Justafriend306, thank you. i have taken your question very seriously. at first all i could think of, were more negative stuff even though i thought i had written it all. still, i cant think of positive stuff, but i think i could come up with positive sides for the items i already mentioned. so now i'll complete the list and then will try to find the positive. im not sure it will change how i feel, the continuous irritation, but its a nice exercise, thank you again.

eating is a trap
sleeping is hard
success is temporary
my life is meaningless
breathing is agony
everything ends
time is limited
travelling costs money
hope is cruel
intimacy is frightening
touch is dangerous
i have no money
i have no place
im not normal
we're gonna lose everything
im guilty for not treasuring what i have
i lost my way
this is all my fault
future is dark
emptiness is unfillable