Hi Coralproper,

Thanks for your honest opinion of my situation, I just saw today that you posted or I would have responded sooner. I didn't think anyone was interested in my problem. Thanks for responding. I don't know what exactly I will do, but I can't and won't rush into anything drastic. I do know that it's not always good to stay for the children, but in my instance I have no where to go and can't afford to live on my own. He may be lusting after someone else, not sure, but probably is. I have no control over that, except how I choose to deal with it. I am not strong enough at this time to change things, i just need others support as I stay in my relationship. I guess I am weak and don't have the courage to leave and start over, break up our family, sell our home and have nothing at all. I know self respect means alot, but I lost that too in the process. If I can catch him cheating or have some kind of proof he is unfaithful, then I will be the first to get that divorce and make him pay through the nose if I have to. I'm just very hurt and still numb right now. The anger hasn't set in yet. Thanks for caring.