I just numb my feelings like always most of the time.

I immerse myself in school, work, and play. I avoid thinking and feeling about how hurt I am from having nobody in my life at all costs.

I keep my mind busy always. Doing so helps me avoid feeling so lonely and helpless.

I figure I will be ready to be loved and accepted by people when I get my life together. I can't very well do that if I'm depressed and hopeless all of the time now can I?