Right now it is not.

My pdoc increased my clozaril and I am sooooooooooooo sedated. I forgot that this dose is where bedwetting starts and so I wet the bed last night. I'm now fully stocked on supplies for that. But I'm pretty much a zombie at the moment. I'm also dog and chicken sitting while trying to spend enough time with my kittens (I live next door to where I'm petsitting).

I'm also still having symptoms, I'm mostly just too sedated to care. The increase hasn't had time to work so this makes sense.

Last night my sister stayed here. I always drink iced tea here and there is always a pitcher of it in the fridge for me. Earlier I washed a glass and poured a glass of tea. It tasted like soap and when I spit it out there were soap bubbles where I spit and also in the glass. I was immediately convinced my sister tried to kill me and started thinking about how I'd have to replace all my mom's food to be safe, how could she do that, etc.

Then it slowly dawned on me. I must not have rinsed my glass in my sleepy state and so I pretty much made myself a glass of soap to drink.

Paranoia much?