(Possible trigger) First, this subject is excruciatingly painful for me, but lately, it has become almost a matter of life or death in my relationship to my T.

I'm what is typically known as a Highly Sensitive Person (or whatever they call it now). I can read body language and facial expressions w/nearly 100% accuracy. I sense changes in peoples' moods or reactions and I register changes that are so minute, some people in my life have terminated friendships because I'm so hyperaware - they feel I can read their minds.

This hyperawareness is intrusive in therapy. I know what's about to happen before I have a chance to talk to my T about the situation. Consequently, the changes I see coming are triggers for my desire to SH. I can't seem to stop this behavior/awareness. It's similar to abandonment triggers and how they make those of us w/abandonment issues feel (I think my fear of abandonment started this behavior).

My T knows how sensitive I am and how I pick up on changes, but we haven't talked about how painful this is for me. I don't know how to stop "reading" people and situations. Or is there a way to stop? (I fear not)

Any suggestions, opinions on what I'm doing, things I might try to dull my senses...any and all responses are appreciated.