Being a mom of 5 kids, I never really held jobs outside the home. As they got older, I thought it would be a great time to get work. The isolation that I lived through, as a stay at home mom, did a number on my mindset. For years, my big outings were the neighborhood school, park, library and grocery.
I didn't go to college, so I applied for entry level jobs, and was always pretty lucky to get hired. The problem became keeping the job. There always seemed to be something more important at home, or a conflict of scheduling with my children's needs. Plus I have driving phobia, so I'm limited in the areas that I can work.
Then my mom became ill, and I cared for her for 5 years, until Feb of this year when she passed.
Since then, I have had lots of interviews, and a couple of offers. I've accepted them, and then at the last minute, decided not to accept the job.
I went back to therapy after mom passed, and got a diagnosis of agoraphobia, depression and anxiety. Was put on meds, but had bad experience, so now I'm just trying to start over again.
I have my certificate as a nurses assistant. The thought of working in a nursing home terrifies me. I keep trying to go in that direction, and then I back out.
Thanks for posting this thread. It helps me to know that I am not alone in this!