I can't deal with this reality. It's too difficult.
Even showering or washing dishes is too difficult.
Even walking. Even waking up.
But i have to WORK, i have to talk with people, i have to pretend like i care.
I don't think i'm bad because of that. I'm who i am. But it's TOO difficult to live here. Here - i mean in this reality. Everything is strange and everyone are weird.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to change. I just want to find my home.