I am really working on this situation at home. I am learning to totally turn off my feelings like a light switch. Right now it's off and that is so much better than feeling like death inside. I am not kidding myself, I know the pain of the emotional and physical death of my marriage is still there, but I am choosing to ignore the symptoms. It's my way of coping and it seems to be working. Eventually everything will probably come crashing on top of me, but I have no choice right now it's the only way I have to survive. My husband is just not capable of any emotions towards me and he is my main support system, so now I have one good friend that I lean on and without her I would just die, Thank God for having that on and off switch handy to simply slide either way I need it to.